I want a Christmas tree.

Faded pictures on the wall,
Its like they're talking to me.

Why has the weather been unpredictable
Why is the sky blue
Why is love eating me up
Why haven't I been feeling happy
Why is there even school
Why must assignments be piling up
Why can't I have more time
Why am I not going overseas for holidays
Why am I even in this course

I'm gonna start planning activity for attachment.

It seems like I'm living my life to please another. I'm so tired. I'm so sick of using this word but I can't find another way to put it ):

Swr, please be okayy I know this is prolly the roughest time but be strong yes. You have N & I. I'm sure you can be better (: Love you.

I don't matter so why bother.

I will not call this pms I would say, I've issues with myself.

I wanna be the one you'd turn to regardless what happens to you & be just that one who treats you better than anyone could. Just whats the possibility?

Am so drained from everything. Things got worse for me & am definitely not coping well. Its like work's rather stressing sometimes, school's starting next week, training's good but I need to self train to improve faster, & something else I don't wish to mention here. Oh & one more thing, I don't even have time for my family. I feel so frustratedddd ):

Its been so long since I blogged here. Anywayyy, just got home from lunch with Phin Nov (the rest left earlier) & 3 of SP ladies haha (: Gonna get ready for work noww & am feeling daaamn tired. Plans to take a nap didn't work out. Am so broke for the weeeek my pay's only coming in next month! This is terrible. Kay I love Phin's cologne! It smells so nice Haha.

Tonight tonight (:

Okay time to get ready. Bye dudez.